Cheating OCD

[Onsloww1964]

Hi,
Ive been reading a lot about cheating OCD where you fear you have cheated on your partner and experience intrusive thoughts. Basically I have som greyed out periods from a recent party & I fear that I may have cheated on my husband who was also in attendance. We often spend parties apart mingling with our friends, me on dance floor with my friends etc. There is a rumour circulating of two people in a toilet and I am wracked with guilt that it was me, but have no recollection of even speaking to anyone that could lead to something like this. Don’t want to bring it up to friends and make myself look guilty even though something like this would be very out of character for me and feel like I can’t look my husband in the eye, thinking my marriage is over if he finds out. Wondering who could of seen me etc. Not eating or sleeping well either, however I have decided to stop drinking as it’s not the first thing ive had memory blackouts, just usually happy dancing or the odd falling over etc. I’ve suffered badly with anxiety day after drinking for years now but nothing like this! I’m even thinking of discussing with my Mum to get her advice. Has anyone experienced this?

I would definitely ask your friends who were with you and can probably put your mind at rest.

And giving up drinking is definitely a good idea.

I don't think people would get OCD about one would-be incident so hopefully if enough people reassure you that you didn't do it, and you stop drinking, you can put it behind you.

A friend of mine used to get paranoid that as part of his alcoholism he'd killed people and put their bodies in the cellar. He didn't have OCD. As soon as he gave up drinking he didn't have the thoughts anymore.

It could be part of your mind trying to encourage you to give up.

This exact thread has already been started this week.

This sounds like a drinking problem
rather than an OCD problem. Limit the drinking and the unexplained blank periods will stop.

As PP said, this is a drinking problem. You need to take a long, hard look at how you’re drinking and cut back because you’re drinking at a level which is harmful and makes you very vulnerable.

When I used to drink a lot I had memory blackouts and paranoia. You definitely need to stop drinking. Vow to stop for 6 months and see how much your life will improve.