Bit of a long story but short version is my dh had an affair just over 2 years ago. It absolutely devestated me but I'm a fighter so I decided to try and make things work and for around 18months did everything I could to get things back on track. I used to be a very outgoing person but my self esteem dropped to all time lows. By going back to work (was off for 3 years having my two kids), it's given me some self confidence but feel that as he was the guilty party, he's hardly made any effort. He showed little remorse over the affair and the only time he has cried about it was when he got upset about what my friends thought of him. He's never been great at showing his feelings (typical man some might say) but in this instance I thought the least he could do was open up to me and start talking to me. I have tried everything to make this marriage work but now am so tired - I don't know if i have any energy left in me to put into this marriage. I come from a broken home (a complicated one but I guess they all are) and the last thing I wanted was to split up our family. Even though our relationship is bad, he is a great dad and the thought of splitting him up from his kids makes me feel so guilty but I'm so unhappy and am too young to spend my life like this. On top of all this I have a demanding job which means I travel a lot and I have no time to myself. My stress levels are reaching immense proportions, my head's spinning and I don't know what to do next. Feel so bad at the thought of splitting up the family but then he should have thought about that two years ago. Then I get confused and think should I give it one last go, or is it just that I'm in a comfort zone I don't want to give up? Don't know where to turn.......