My husband doesn't love me anymore but won't end our marriage either. He hasn't told me he loves me in almost 5 years and is not affectionate or loving either, although used to be.
We live in a housemate situation and he treats me as his mate. He isn't nasty towards me but clearly all love has gone. He used to be much more loving. I'm in my mid-thirties and feel too young to be living like this. I want some love and passion in my life again. I feel miserable.
I'm reluctant to be the one who ends things; I ended it before Christmas and he moved out for a week and during that time he made lots of references to the separation being my choice and not his! This is frustrating for me as I don't want to be the one to end my marriage but also, I don't want a loveless marriage either.
We have two children also who are 7 and 5. I only ever wanted to have a loving family and a loving equal marriage, it feels foreign to me to end it all when it's all I ever wanted. I don't see him working on improving our marriage either; he does not wish to attend relationship counselling and isn't trying to rekindle his feelings for me. It's like he's accepted that we live as housemates. We have sex every couple of months but it feels like it's more to fill a sexual need than it is about each other.
What do I do?