I think I’ve hit my final straw tonight.
my dh is randomly very moody and snappy - he can go months being nice and then snap. For no reason.
tonight, I was bathing our son and he came in and told me it was too late and what the hell was I doing trying to bath him at this time. For a split second I debated explaining why it was so late tonight and then I realised it didn’t matter. So I just said bravely “don’t speak to me like that” and he said “you idiot, I’ll talk to you how I want” and stormed out leaving my son break down in tears saying why does daddy do this?
i think this has been my final straw. No matter how hard, how very hard this will be, I’m done being spoken to like dirt in front of the kids.
he’ll apologise by Friday if previous patterns are anything to go by but it means nothing as hell simply do it again. In a week, or a month, or 3
months. But he’ll do it again. And I don’t deserve that and more than me our beautiful kids don’t deserve it.
oh how I wish he just wouldn’t wake up in the morning. That’s how angry I feel. Normally I feel sad when he does this but not this time. I just feel lava- level anger.
this is almost a diary entry to me. i need to leave him.