Been with H for 8 years, married for 5, have one child.
Anyways at the start of our relationship, I was an option for about a year and I didn't know. Then he told me a year after and it felt like a kick in the teeth and the other(s) were also way more accomplished than me.
Then we bought a flat and he couldn't cope because we were limited in funds and the commute was further, so I took another job to keep afloat. He got OW. Seeing as we just bought a new flat, he ended with her and we tried again. And then marriage and kids the year after.
Obviously this was another smack to my self esteem throughout this and yes I should've LTB before I had the kid. But I was the idiot.
Anyways we have regular arguments that I'm not doing enough again. I work full time, am a first time mum to a 1 yr old with sleep issues, have a house now to deal with. Over the week, I caught a nasty flu and today only started to feel better. My H has a thing about gym, I'm usually pretty good at my fitness but this has slipped in the last 3 months since back to work. I'm still a size 4-6 and he's going off on one about me looking haggard and fat and dumpy. And I just broke down because I was so exhausted, am also on my first day of period as well.
I'm not sure with our history I can stay any more, i constantly feel like it's just not enough.j But I don't know how to separate, I have family and they know his ways but I don't know how to even start this conversation with him without him blowing up- need a handhold.