Hi.
I've ended a five month thing and just read a comment on another thread about why the OP gets involved with things that don't work out. I think I do that.
Do people do it to subconsciously not commit? I had a very abusive childhood so it's all normal but how do you change it??
I was engaged before but ended it, as he just wasn't right.
Then in Dec I met a very high powered business man. He is lovely in many ways, but some red flags.
The most glaring thing is, I'm a hippy musician who plays music with friends most nights and weekends (no kids) and this guy liked expensive restaurants and watching movies and being asleep by 10pm.
I knew right away that we would not gel socially, but I thought he could be my lover. Best sex EVER, ten years older than me and wow, experienced older man is real.
But each time he comes over, it's all about food and staying in, while my usual would be down the pub playing music.
I wanted him to come over, but when it came to it, I felt wistful that he wouldn't come out with me and I would then miss all the fun.
This week he has pissed me off enough that I've ended it. I'm not the sort for a lover. I'll have to go without sex.
I just need to understand why I keep dating someone, and allowing feelings to develop, when I can see early that theres no future.
I live alone, no kids, don't want to live with a man as I practice too much and the domestic duties piss me off if they take me away from music.
Is my future single and sexless, but excellent socially and top music playing?