Hi I don't know why I am on here but I don't do well with talking about how I feel in real life so I'm hoping I can get some good advice and good outcome stories please.
I have been with my fiancé 15 years. I left an emotionally and physically abusive relationship a week before and I just wanted someone to escape too . And I was also so scared to be on my own. I knew from the start that things wernt good but I thought things would be ok.
Turns out that he was actually worse than my ex and i apologised for everything I done that annoyed him. Which was even breathing towards the end .
I finally went on medication for anxiety and got a dog . He's 1 now and a beautiful German Shepard. I never knew what love was until he came in to my life .
The last year I have changed . When he kicked off and would abuse me I would just walk away instead of crying begging him that I would change . Also I'm out a lot with the dog and going to beautiful places .
My partner hates the dog with a passion and blames him for me not loving him anymore . He even told me I have to choose.
There is so much more I could write down but we would be here all day . He had a troubled up brining so I always felt like I could help him but I couldn't even help him self .
He done things to me that he knew I was dead against because of my ex but then would make me feel like I made him do it .
He walked out a week ago . Packed his stuff and left . Said that I don't love him anymore .
I was sad but relived and have managed to get through the days working and with my dog .
Now last night he messaged me really sad messages that he has no where to go and how suicidal I have made him feel . I feel like I'm back to square one because I don't want him to be sad because of me and the thought of him having no where to go breaks my heart . I have offered him back home and as soon as I sent it I feel all anxious again like I did when I was with him.
Please tell me that I have made a mistake . Thankyou ❤️