I have two siblings . We all moved together to England after dramatic abusive childhood in different country and promised each other to stick together. They both managed to marry very rich . Both have great lives, don’t need to work, loads of family support from families of their spouses. I, on the other hand, ended up being single parent with no one(my children’s dad had drugs problems and is not in our lives). I was the only one of us going to university wanting to improve myself, but ended up in the worst situation. We see each other once a while because they travel so much . I love them, but feel so resentful. I don’t want to and I’m happy for them, but it sometimes feel like they don’t get my struggles at all. I occasionally ask them to babysit and they agree, but only about three times a year (they have families of their spouses babysitting often). I was just about to lose my job, because both my kids were sick so often (I asked if they could help, but they were too busy). I understand that it’s all my fault and they are not responsible for my life, but it’s just so hard and I don’t know how to get over this and stop being resentful . When is my time for happiness?! How to keep the relationship with them (I don’t have any friends apart from my two siblings and I have a hard time making friends due to anxiety ). Sometimes I am wondering if I should just move far away so this situation is not in my face every day