Sorry for the essay but my head has been all over the place since yesterday.
Here goes
I have met this man who I have fallen for and I know he has fallen for me too . He has told me a few times but only yesterday I admitted how I really felt.
We have met up a lot but only Saturday night did things go a bit further.
We had both been out for a few drinks together and he was way worse than me.
We went back to my house and started kissing touching ect. It was lovely very passionate.
He wanted to have sex but he is religious so I kept saying no because youl regret it in the morning . This went in for 3 hours so I was dying too my self ha ha but obviously kept saying what I said .
I met up with him yesterday and he looked all flustered so I said if you need to talk to me you know you can .
He said I need to apologise to you for Saturday night. He said you know how I feel about you but the guilt he feels is bad and he hugged and thanked me for stopping him and basically not took advantage of him in his drunk state . Which I easily could of. But I care for him too much to of done that and also have some self worth not to do it because I knew how strongly he believes in sex Before marriage .
He admitted he had done it once before and he said that he suffered bad mental health for years because of it . He said I'm an amazing person and a true friend.
He said he has never felt like this about anyone before but we can't go for a lot of drinks together anymore because of how he gets with me .
I don't know why I feel so gutted but at the same time happy .
I honestly don't know why I have wrote this but I don't discuss my love life with many people because I am pretty shut off with emotional stuff .
After the talk yesterday I text him and told him exactly how I felt about him but said at the end I would never jerpodise our friendship so I'm happy to stay as we are .
I just want to know what do people make of this . Thankyou