So lonely thinking of getting back with my ex

[OhMyCherriePie]

Ive been split up with my ex for a few years now but I’m considering getting back with him (think he would) as I am so lonely! I don’t want to be with him but can’t stand the loneliness anymore. It’s the Easter holidays and I will speak to no one apart from my children. I haven’t even been out anywhere with them as I dread going to places alone (everywhere I go is full of families) I won’t speak to any one all Easter holidays as my family are toxic and I have no relationship with them and I don’t have any friends (please don’t suggest making any I am autistic and I have never been able to make friends I am a complete outcast at the school gates making friends is not an option I am too socially awkward and I’ve never fit in anywhere) I can’t date as my ex doesn’t ever have our children overnight so meeting someone else just isn’t possible, I can’t afford babysitters etc I just feel stuck and think maybe it’s best to get back with my ex because I can’t stand the isolation anymore and at least I wouldn’t be alone. Maybe just until my kids grow up and I can meet someone else. Please don’t think I am just desperate to meet someone I have been alone for many many years I don’t know anyone my age who has been alone for this long. Can it work? Has anyone been in this position?

Well I've been alone for over 5 years now. If I didn't have children I wouldn't choose to stay alone and i don't think generally humans want to be completely alone we want to have a partner, yes I know so many on MN claim they want to be alone and stay single forever but I don't know anyone irl that feels that way and I'm the only person my age that I know of that has been single for so long. (Ive been single since 28) I guess attraction and feelings could grow again. It would be company and the children would be happy and i wouldn't be a loner all the time, everywhere I go I see families.

With all due respect Op, you sound desperate. And it is obvious it is tough for you. The lack of family support network and friends, you seem to have sunk into a pit of despair. I don't think humans want to have a partner, I think humans want to be connected to others, whether platonically or romantically, not exclusively romantically, that's a more recent historical phenomenon to partner up. You need to learn skills in how to expand your social circle, hankering after a relationship (this one or another one) will not help you in the long run. What if they leave you?? Will you just continue on the merry go round looking for another man?Just because you've been single for 5 years, it doesn't mean you've learned the skills to manage your life successfully alone. It isn't healthy in the long run.

Desperate yet been single for 5 years? Hardly. Most single mum's I know of have had two/three relationships by now 🤦 if I was desperate I would shack up with any man I could find but I value my children's safety and don't want random men in their lives from the get go. Yes most women in their 30s want romantic partners unless they are asexual! Are you saying that most women in their 30s don't want partners and are happy just having friends / family?

Also my ex has tried to get back with me more than once but I've said no because I don't feel that way anymore however I had more going on then so didn't feel as lonely