Look what you did, that made me do it

[Potsofflowers]

There's a bully in my life. We are siblings but we are estranged.

She started a new round of abusive communications with me recently. I often ignore her and she is often determined and she gets annoyed and angry and then that's when she likes to start to smear and shame campaign again and again.

Every fiber of my being has been pulled apart now at this stage from her and questioned.

Lately I had this line :

Look what you did that made me do what I did and then I continued reading and it was twisted. The truth and timeliness was twisted and it was lies too.

This is very hard.

She's longterm like this to me and to others toom. She's at loggerheads with everyone. It's the way her personality is really. All of it is petty.

I am surprised she hasn't made herself sick with all of this. I felt sick just from receiving it at the weekend but she must be in a constant state of hate at the world. I'm surprised she hasn't given herself a stroke yet and made herself sick. Her mind is definitely sick.

You should try a social media free life. I’m about 10 years SM-free now, no-one can mess about with me like that. 100% recommend it.

I limit social media. I am not on Instagram or twitter. I refuse to be hounded off Facebook. I don't use it often but I do find it useful. I think in my case it's not the answer either because she's a sibling. She remembers me and my life and the people in it. She is determined and loves contacting people that she remembers in my life. When and if she can't get to me, there will be others. It's not the answer.

A bit unconventional but as she likes a good smear campaign herself I would be explaining that the next foul message she sent to me would be screen shot and posted on social media (f/book if that's all you have)....depending on her job she might think twice especially if some of her colleagues might come across her disgusting comments!

I saw someone retaliate against her and she tried to wreck him.

I often thought about this. She gave me enough material to screenshot it and make her stop by exposing her but I don't know if it's the answer. She's dangerous. She is dangerous. She would have no problem using message apps to send other people messages from 'me' and she did do that to one of my older numbers that he had for me. All she will do is revenge me. She never stops.

Just go straight to the police with copies of every message (clearly dated if possible)
She sounds totally unhinged to be honest, if she doesn't care what people see about her on social media you are a little bit stuck.
Hopefully the police can deal with her and point you to some organisations that can help too, I think the Suzy Lamplugh Trust is one of them.

A lot of her messages is blame -

You did this
You did that
You did this
You
You
You
You

So much of it is wrong, twisted, going back to our youth, no matter how minor.

I went to the police before and I was interrogated - what are you doing to anger her was what I was questioned with. I wanted to die right there.
I'm ignoring her and that's angering her.

Show me a family and siblings who don't have rows growing up?

I have to step away from her time and time and time again.

If she targets others too, how the hell has she not ended up with a visit from the police yet?
She sounds very disturbed. How is she getting through life behaving this way? I am flummoxed as to why she hasn’t ended up in serious trouble.

How is she contacting you if you have blocked her ? She sounds unwell.

Fake profiles, through work and friends that she remembers, emails. I have her emails going into its own folder but sometimes I do dip in and out from it. Mail and post.
Other family members

Usually the harassment from her has taken on 3 or 4 rounds a year lasting for weeks at a time. Before that, it used to be much more from her. It did die down a bit. The officers in my local station are a bunch of lazy shits. They don't want to help me because it's work for them and they keep fobbing me off. When I go to another station, they ask for my address and direct me to the local station where I get fobbed off all over again.

The recent round of abuse from her left me so ill. It's definitely not a flu because I wasn't around anyone with flu and I am not mixing with the public in crowded places. I felt the abuse. I felt blood rush to my head and drain from other areas. I felt it from head to toe and in my gut. For the past week, I felt pain in every inch of my body. The hair on my head fell out dramatically and thinned so much too. It was thinning before anyways but I was able to minimise it and thicken my hair and stall the loss but now, my hair is like a fringe. I think it's all stress related and from that harassment.