Hello, I don't really know how to say this but I'm so down and depressed and need somebody's opinion. I've been with my partner for 8 years we have kids. I want to end the relationship as I don't love him, he's doesn't do much round the house, all life admin is sorted by me and I look after the kids, he gets angry if I don't want to have sex and we argue about it often, he says if we have sex more the arguments will stop. I don't trust him as he stealthed me a few years ago. I really can't stand him near me, I've since become aware its classed as rape and it plays on my mind daily. Because I've decided enough is enough he has become very difficult to live with, buying takeaways before even checking if the kids have eaten. He's been wiping his semen in my pants and I've found them when doing the washing, he was masturbating outside the bathroom door when I went to take a bath and his excuse when I confronted him was he hasn't seen me naked in ages (the door was slightly ajar as the kids walked in and didn't close the door fully). I really want to part properly so me and the kids have a home but since I've told him I want to split he keeps telling me I have to sell the house so he can get his money. This isn't really helpful and he's again leaving everything to me, we have a joint mortgage and i don't know if I can get a mortgage as I work part time so I'm trying to delay speaking with someone, it's just all too much at the minute and having no one to confide it about it make it all the more difficult so sorry for the long post.