Hi,
Long story short, DH returned from work pulled his phone out of his pocket and a blister strip of pulls flew out, he grabbed them so quick as toddler DC's instantly eyed them, I barely saw them. He instantly said they were ibuprofen as he had a sore shoulder. I asked what was up with his shoulder, he then told me they were viagra because he "was anxious again"
Trouble is, he was prescribed viagra in his first marriage over 12 years ago. He said he was anxious and suffered with ED due to it, then he said he used it because of his problems in his relationship with his ex wife.
He's never been prescribed it within our marriage (that I know of?) but his DF has it due to a medical condition so I'm assuming hes got it from him?
We've been together 9 years and have two toddler age DCs. We've always maintained a normal sex life. Obviously we aren't at it like rabbits like we were pre-DC but we have it around 4 times a week, on a slow week at least twice.
Feeling a bit shit, mostly because he denied what it was and wasn't going to tell me, then I feel shit within myself because my self esteem has taken a knock and I'm 1.5st heavier than I was pre-kids. I'm usually confident, I don't know why this is bothering me so much. Now I'm paranoid thinking he's unhappy with me like he was with his ex wife. Now I'm spiralling into a whole new world of paranoia 
I'm also acting completely neutral and fine because I don't know how to approach it.
Bit of a crappy end to Mother's Day, but I don't know why I'm feeling so shit about it. It's not the actual viagra that bugs me, it's his body and his right to take what he wants I think it's the secrecy element to it. He's never mentioned feeling anxious to the point where it caused ED and he hasn't had any ED with me that I've known of.
Any advice? Please be gentle I have absolutely no problem with him or viagra I'm just confused and don't know how to approach it and feeling abit caught off guard.