Sorry if this is a long post but I need to hear some success stories on here to help me get through this low point.
I’m a 43 year old single mum to an amazing daughter who’s 11. We have the best relationship. I separated from my ex after being together 20 years just over 4 years ago. He was having an affair and is still with the other woman. We are still not divorced but not for the want of trying!! He’s a narcissist and a control freak and has been dragging the divorce out for over 2 years now so I’ve taken over control of it to try and move the pace quicker of which he’s less than pleased about. I feel like I’m stuck in this horrible bubble of which I can’t get out of while he swans around spending money like it grows on trees. I don’t have any feelings for him anymore but I feel embarrassed sometimes that him and everyone around me seem to be in happy relationships and I’m still on my own like there’s something wrong with me. I spent the first 10 months on my own and then had 3 short terms relationship’s though online dating but I seem to attract idiots so never lasted (I’m sure there are lovely people on there but I don’t seem to attract them) I actually spent from last April on my own through my choice and started to become happy but I’ve been in contact with someone over the last 3 months who showed he had feelings towards me and then has now disappeared. This has just knocked me back to square one and I just feel so fed up with life at the moment.
I know people will say just spend time with your daughter and be happy but I’d love to be able to come home to some adult company and somebody to be there for me.
Sorry about the rambling but not sure where to turn and was looking for someone to say I’ve been there but my life turned around x