Relationship has been rocky for a long time.
Partner promised me to not take cocaine after he had a blow out at Xmas and I said how much it upset me. Last night after work I picked the kids up and went home. I phoned him and he said he was in the pub. I phoned again later and he said he was on his way home (10 mins away). 40 mins later he comes in with daffodils and steak for me to cook and says happy 40 months. I am cooking the kids tea and realise instantly he doesn't come to hug or kiss me and that's his usual style when he has been on the gear. I said I wasn't stupid and felt really disappointed he broke a promise. He admitted he done it and had met with his dealer that's why it took him so long to come home.
He had more gear in his pocket and I asked him to get rid of it as I didn't want it in the house. He said he would sniff it and not waste it. I said how pathetic it was to want some powder over his family and he said it's only a line. That I shouldn't get uptight and so upset over it when everyone does it and he's causing no harm. That it's my fault he's felt low this week and why he took it.
I feel like I should end our relationship but wondering if I really am being over dramatic because he's made me feel like it's such a small thing and now I feel confused about it.