Me and my partner have a great sex life and even when we aren't together we are constantly sexting etc.. so naturally I had no concerns he was seeking enjoyment elsewhere.
One Sunday morning I we were making out and the door bell went so I had to go sort that out.. I came back and he was on his laptop doing work so naturally I just got on with some stuff I needed to do. An hour or so later I went back in the room and he opened his internet up and I just happened to look over to see some very very provocative images of naked women on Google images. I asked what it was and he said he was aroused because of us making out so he went on Google. He has loads of pics of me so it really hurt me but what hurt more is that he done that in my presence. He doesn't understand what's wrong with it and did not think there would be an issue. He also said it has nothing to do with his attraction for me. I have adhd so reallt struggle with emotional dysregulation. We forgot about it and the thoughts intermittently come back. He can't explain why he did it and it hurts because if we have sex (we did the night before which he claimed was the best we ever had) so often why would he feel the need to look at someone else like that? Giving those circumstances :( feel like I won't ever forget it and he will do it again. I have spoken to him and says it hurts me and he said he won't do it again but I have previous trauma from the past so I can't just believe someone.