So a bit of background - I have had the same very close friends since school, a couple of them since primary school. I know I am very lucky to have this.
I have always been quite a social person and would often go out and meet up with my friends for drinks, dinner etc.
Recently I have been struggling with my mental health. Nothing too serious, but I have been feeling very self critical and disconnected, like I don’t matter to anyone and like I don’t want to do anything or see anyone other than my partner and son.
I am worried that my friends will think I am not making enough effort (they would probably be right), but how do I explain to them that my mental health is affecting my ability to be a good friend right now?
I wish it was as easy as ‘they’re your best friends, just tell them how you’re feeling’, but every time I consider it I just cave and act like I’m completely fine, but I’m really not.
I'm scared I’m going to lose them.
Am I just being self absorbed?
TIA