I've been writing some sort of online diary since I began my divorce back in the summer. At first, it was to help me make sense of things and then, I shared it with a few "safe" people I know, they shared it with a few others and the audience has been growing since. My therapist wants me to consider publishing it as it explores my ex husband's potential narcissism etc with links to articles and my own research embedded within the posts.
I wrote an entry on Friday evening and I've felt absolutely awful since. Like I've relived it all over again. The post detailed many of the hurtful things specifically that he has done to me over the years, whilst being backed and supported by his very "Christian" family.
I wrote the post as I realised I had only vaguely touched on what my ex had done, in brief terms and I felt the blog needed some concrete examples. Since writing this post, I can't stop reading it and it's only making me feel worse!!
Trying to figure out why I'm continuing to write about him and specifically, all the shitty things he's said and done. Am I dwelling or healing? I don't feel very good. Should I stop writing the blog?