My daughters father sends a chill through my spine, he is a constant source of terror in my life.
We left him a few years back after years of domestic abuse. I left him with nothing to my name, no support, left all my belongings behind and took our daughter and ran.
Since he started children's proceedings.. he sits in Court with glasses on when he doesn't even need glasses, he fake cries, he sniffs, he maintains HE is the victim and I am the perpetrator.
He has lied in the witness box
He has lied to CAFCASS
He has lied to the psychologist undertaking the psychological evaluation of him
He has continued to lie and lie and lie.
He does not take 1% of responsibility for anything he has done and blames it ENTIRELY on me.
I have nightmares of his twisted face, his spitting mouth, his hand around my neck.
He has supervised contact every other week but is now seeking unsupervised despite 3 judges, CAFCASS officer and now the psychologist saying he poses a significant risk to both DD and me. It is now all in my daughters Guardian's hands.
I'm scared because our daughter engages with him during contact and is affectionate towards him.
I can never see or speak to him ever again in my life - he makes me physically tremble.
I'm currently on the waiting list for therapeutic intervention which I know will help in some way, but every time I hear his voice or see his face it brings me to a shivering, trembling wreck.
I just don't know how he can maintain he is the victim after all of this time.. it makes me sick to my stomach.