I'm a single mum of 2. Never had a relationship after my dh died 7 years ago.
A few months ago I had this odd urge to text this guy I went to high school with. We would chat from time to time, but I never really saw him like that. But believe it or not, I had a dream about him, and I couldn't stop thinking about him since then.
So we started chatting, then I began to like him. I confessed my feelings, he was so surprised. And then he told me he's sorry because he has a girlfriend back in our home country.
However, he told me he's always liked me but he just wasn't sure how to approach me then because of my situation.
I tried to stop talking to him after I found out, but he would message me still, and so I just gave in. We would meet every time he'd come up to London.
I knew I really liked him, but I wasn't sure if I was ready for a relationship because it was all new to me again. Nevertheless, I fell in love and so did he.
However, he couldnt break up with his gf because she's coming over to visit him. I didn't know that he was so confused between us that he broke up with her once but they got back together because I told him that I wasn't sure if I was ready.
She's arriving this Saturday. We stopped talking last week.
I feel guilty, but also extremely sad and heartbroken because I've never met anyone in my life that I had an incredible connection and chemistry with. I'm a closed book person, but it amazes me how he knows what I'm thinking without him realising. We quickly felt comfortable towards each other in a short span of time. We found out that our grandfathers share then same first name and birthdays! Our parents' situations are also the same.
And then I realised that even when we weren't close before, he always felt pleasant and there's this calmness and awareness between us.
I honestly don't know the point of this post.
Maybe I just want to talk to people I don't know because I'm sad. I know it was wrong, but he just felt so right 😔😔😔