Ok, I will give you the summed up version about what is going on.
I have had a very traumatic life. My relationships this includes family partners and friends have been very traumatic as well.
I was at the point in the past few years where I completely isolated myself. I was scared from all the past trauma and unsure if I was able to make a safe choice to add people back unto my life..
I slowly started with my family my mom and that all went well until she passed away just after I had given uo my apartment in the city to move to a small town to help if she needed.
She ended up passing away and the day after my dad asked me to leave..
I expected that from my family I didn't except my mom to die.
Now here's where I'm really struggling I started dating someone who knows my past trauma who has been in my life for 17 years at least and I thought I knew him..
My heart breaks as he lays beside me talking with other woman
He has then send naked pictures that he leaves open for me to see
He leaves his emails open so I can see how many sites he is on
I don't have to many options except stay until the end of the month and let it kill me INSIDE
It's the fact that I finally decided to let someone in and the one person picked in 4 years doesn't treat me much better than what I'm use to.
He does not love me like he always says and I'm he's not all mine he says that as well..
How to I go the next 2 weeks without having a melt down
PLEASE SUGGESTIONS