I never learn; ever from my mistakes. I have been OLD on and off for the past 3 years and I keep doing the exact same thing over and over again! I get sucked into sending sexual images and phone sex. Even when I meet the guy, I end up having zero self control when he initiates even though at times I feel uncomfortable.
My on and off ex of 3 years left me with bruises, manipulated and cheated on me. Heck, I didn't know he was married with 2 kids within the first year of our relationship.
I feel like such a failure, used and then thrown out. Why am I not respecting myself? I never block the ones that treat me badly either!
How do I change? I'm so so tired!