Where do I begin, my DBF & I have been going out for the last 18 mths & Monday night I finished due to various reasons as he has been very stressed with his divorce, business,his dc etc & he been taking it out on me, also him saying things wherent right between us.He just walked out & never said anything.
Well Last night he came round to talk and basically he said the reason he has been like he has is that I have made him paranoid by the fact my abusive ex husband came round to the house drunk in the early hours last june banging on the door & then this november ringing up at 1am so he thinks I have still been sleeping with ex & leading him on since ex & I split 3 years ago.And the fact that I am civil to him for my 2ds sake he thinks there is something still between me & ex h & I need to sort my head out And also the fact that he doesnt believe I love him as I would have said it to ex h & a BF that i went out with when I was 18.And that he doesnt take the word love lightly well neither do I.But on this basis he thinks I do, So on this basis he cant possibly be with me even though he loves me, loves everything about me, enjoys being with me & going to miss me like crazy he cant live with thinking like he does. I just broke down in tears & begged him not to go (sorry no will power) which in turn caused him to cry. In the end he ended up stopping the night & we both cried all night. What do I do? Is it my fault? I have deleted his numbers out my phone. Please need some advice as feel so much pain & sick at the thought of not being with him as I love him so much & we make each other happy. Do I just leave him alone?