Hi all. So the last two years I've had ups and downs but last year was the worst. I split with my fiancé due to cheating and emotional abuse I would say. I told my best friend at the time about it all and that I was depressed and going through therapy etc. she asked how I was each time and I answered honestly. (I didn't message her first btw, as I didn't wanna bother anyone with how I was but she was persistent for to me talk even if I replied with I'm ok) I asked if I could see her and she replied that she didn't think we could be friends or meet up anymore etc. I told her I really wanted and needed a friend at the time but she ignored me. Anyway just after new years this year, she messaged me and asked how I was and that she cared but she doesn't see us becoming friends after last year but wanted to know if I'm ok and how I'm doing and understood if I didn't message her back. Well I got really pissed off with this message. I didn't message back straight away but after a few days (and a couple of drinks) I did message her and basically told her how dare she message to ask if I'm ok and what I'm upto nowadays considering she doesn't want to be friends and ghosted me when I needed her when I've always been there for her in the past. She replied that she couldn't be my fiend as it was all about me me me at the time and I didn't ask how she was. I told ger I don't think she knows what depression does to people. That depressed people are about themselves especially when reaching out for help and I apologised for bothering her even though she messaged me telling me she was there for me. I even said how I've been there for her when she's had problems and she had never asked how I was either at that time but I was still there for her as I understood the need to vent and be oblivious to anyone around you when you're in a state. She literally just "liked" what I messaged with a thumbs up and I unfriened me on social media.
Sorry for the long post but I'm wondering if I should'nt have blown at her and that maybe I was a bit harsh? but I thought she was just being nosey rather than friendly and clearly needed to vent to me about her problems like usual and pretend nothing happened. I have felt like she just used me to feel better about herself in the past tbh