Please no judgement. Me and partner have been together for a few years. He was out of a long relationship with kids and I was a single mum when we met. I was quite successful in career, house etc. He used to speak quite highly of his ex.. somethings I feel things were a little exaggerated really (but he admitted he was intimidated by me so had something to prove) like looks wise about her which dented my confidence - but she was made out to be something she was not, which i realised when i saw her. Fast forward, we went through alot with his ex, kids (both each others and now joint), jobs, family health issues etc. I suffered anxiety really bad. Now my life has now settled to a "perfect life". But since things have been easier I can't help but feel my partner has just been awful. I feel he is gaslighting me, and just being really rude. I have flipped out a few times, loosing control. I have never felt like this before. But even today's argument.. I said something and it could be taken 2 ways in hind sight but telling me different words I said. Then being nasty to me making personal comments because he thinks I was horrible to him. I warned him he needed to stop annoying me (my chest was hurting). He still continued to carry on until I literally threw something at him, nothing bad (please dont judge but want to be honest). I feel I have became something I am not, like this person with no patience. My confidence has been shot from how he was at the beginning too about his ex. I almost feel resentment about this - its not like he makes an effort to make me feel good. I just feel like now things are settled he got so relaxed and thinks he can treat me like this? I feel so broken and upset. I just don't know what to do...