Wondering if it was you?
I keep remembering a few specific things that he did that demonstrated lack of care, control, sneering, punishment, nastiness, selfishness, but
Mostly punishment.
There were so many good points and I know he is hurting now and deeply regretting that we broke up.
I gave until I had no more to give and feel utterly drained after the relationship.He had everything to gain from the relationship. Me.. not so much. In fact very little besides companionship and being told how to 'do' everything from
Parenting to managing my life, divorce, car, work etc.
I won't be going back, ever.
But there is part of me that wonders if I caused him to behave like that.
I am doing work on myself and am reengaging with my counsellor in the next month but there is a reason that my self worth must be so low as to have tolerated such shitty behaviour at times.
I need to make sure it doesn't happen me again and I leave at the first sign of basis c lack of love and care.
And the sex was also shit. Again, I did the labour itkwim.