I retired in June ,moved from one end of the country to the other ,talking full brunt of cost ,our marriage has been awful for years ,I want out ,but now can’t afford to leave as he is not working and won’t leave, why would he ,he has it all ,he has every excuse known to man ,from wanting to sort our marriage ,no ,I know actions speak louder than words ,I am so sick ,just had covid now have the worst virus I have never in my life been so sick ,,I really don’t see any light at the end of any tunnel,I am the strongest person I know ,it’s crazy ,my life is crazy well that’s me and my life and that’s just a tiny part of it ,,😳