Ladies and gentlemen, I apricate your thoughts, it's helping me seeing things from different perspective.
This is what happened.
Two days after she told me that she needs her time, she texted me on fb asking me how much should she pay me for an hdmi netflix stick I left at her house as now she saw it she told me.
We texted a bit, I told her that I rushed, I make all kind of mistakes but this was with all good intentions.
She doesn't want that I feel bad and told me that she needs to find herself again as obviously she was in hassle and I increased it to her as she wanted me for this long, and all of a sudden we rushed doing a lot of things while there was another man a bit hanged on in her life.
This man is the one who supposed went with her to Paris and I went instead of him. He asked her for a break because his Ex was going nuts and that he need to help her, (it is here when after few months, she texted me again because the man did put her aside to help his ex. While she was still having feelings for him, she started to hated me.
Anyways, in her texts to me she told me that she even didn't get back to him (without me asking her) and she continued that I caught her in a very bad timing however if she stays away from me, she might miss me again as it happened many times before and told me that she might start getting attracted back to me but that now she needs her space. She continued that i anything, we have to start from the very beginning, meeting twice or three times per week and proceed from there.
I told her that now she knows my intentions and that I'm serious, and that know I know better her life's routine with her job together with her child (from her marriage) and that I'm ready for all of this and that I see ourselves that we might have a solid future together if we try and she replied that this she always thought that we were right together.
I continued that for now, I should be available to her but that if we see each other by mistake outside, not to get offended if I turn my head elsewhere as I would be in pain. She replied not to do so because we would be as enemies to each other but I insisted to keep it this was so it will also serve as a "no contact" situation for both of us. And she told me that she doesn't want me to feel like hanging waiting for her as she insisted that she doesn't want me to feel bad.
She told me that she respects me and she have nothing against me at this point. She understood that for a year and 9 months, I wasn't ready to be committed to no one and not because she had something wrong, as for this time, she thought she had something wrong.
We agreed that in both cases, bad timing was the most of them. First I wasn't ready, than she was caught with another relationship.
We are on a "no contact situation"
And we left each other "take care".
Thoughts?
I'm very obliged to you who I don't know!
May you never encounter something like my situation, I know I'm stupid at times.
Ryan