Help!
My partner who I have been with for nearly 5 years has recently disrespected me and I am struggling with it.
Before I go into it, just let you know that me and him had no intentions of marriage but he is very very against marriage.
Back in October we went to an wedding, throughout the wedding he kept mentioning that I am his future wife and that he will propose soon. This caught me by surprise so I acted normal, pretending I didn’t hear anything even though it was in front of me with groups of people.
Around this time my rings went missing, you can only imagine what I was thinking. At first I wasn’t sure about if I were to say yes if he was going to ask but as months went on, the more I thought about it, the more likely it actually changed to a yes. That change is huge since I struggle to trust people and did not think marriage would be possible. I thought maybe he changed his mind without telling me and the wedding vibe got him going. He was completely sober at this wedding.
For December he planned a few Christmas light walks so I thought is this when he’s gonna it? No it wasn’t. Then I thought Christmas Day…. It wasn’t. After watching TV when couple got engaged, I said to him “if you ever propose to me I don’t mind what ring it is… onion ring, party ring, doughnut ring my answer would probably be yes.” and that’s when everything changed. He told me that he never wants to marry me.
We spent few days arguing because he strongly doesn’t remember saying about proposal to me and even accused me of making it up. In the past when I told him stuff that he didn’t believe, he would always say I made it up until someone got proof. He eventually asked the people who witnessed him if what I said was true, they confirmed it was.
He hasn’t said sorry for anything as he think he doesn’t owe anything as it was my mind that created something in my head that wasn’t going to happen.
I trusted him, trusted him enough to think about marrying him and he only said it as a joke at a wedding to be less awkward. Who does that? It is okay to be unmarried at weddings. He could of told everybody the truth but he didn’t. Now he’s acting like nothing happened and wants us to move on. He wants children with me and future with me.
How do I believe him with anything? I feel like I don’t trust him in same way. Half the people I told says i should walk away because I deserve better. The other half thinks I should try to trust him again and move on despite the fact he massively embarrassed me.
I feel like a idiot and I wish I could just get on a plane, fly away from this.
Has anyone been in this situation? What should I do?