Letting go of the family unit dream

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Ex still wants to be a family.. I left due to suspected cheating (took a woman away for his work weekend-she's not employed in field and lied about her being there for 2 night but swears didn't cheat) and drugs. He's now clean and it's 18mths on.
He wants us to be a family and he has done a lot of things to turn stuff around. He's putting pressure on - repeated calls and messages begging for family reconciliation. Saying our son will be happier (4years old). We did try and it failed due to lies about where/who with but he's pushing hard again.
In the last 18mths, I've got a promotion, am buying a bigger house myself and been a single mom. Hard v. Hard but I am happy or at least content.
I entertained idea as I want the family dream but I genuinley can't imagine being intimate again as trusts gone.
Im juts v. Sad as its a no and I can't even say why just.. I don't want to.
Not sure what point of this post is but I guess I needed to write it down.

Conversation is done, really firm this time. He's blocked me on everything and refusing to let me call my son on his time as he's there now and back on nw years day.
I suspect the good Co parenting may fall by the wayside despite it being postive :(

He’s shown his true colours. Always remember that. Prepare yourself for more games and manipulations but never forget you’ve made the right decision.

Agree with pp and now on top of everything else he has done you can see his pleas to get you back were an act and he has shown his true colours with his angry reaction when he won't get his way.
Well done on achieving so much on your own. Don't let this twat take it away from you

He wants his comfortable life back. No wonder.

I doubt he'd be faithful once his feet were back under the table.

I'd recommend you don't try yet again. You don't trust him, quite rightly. And it's not really fair on your son to have the to & froing.

Don't be pressured into it.

Any recommendations for good walking shoes (shoes not boots), am doing part of the camino in spring. No foot issues and relatively flat walks in mind,

But you are a happy family unit - you and your son - dont bring a cheating man in to upset the balance. Keep going forward

Op, inam sorry to hear his response but not surprised. Unfortunately he may try to.use your ds against you now. He is angry because he isn't getting what he wants. And of course he wanted to get back together- a lovely new home, someone to do the work, easy time with his son.

Stick to your guns. And good luck. It might be a but tough for a while.