Hi everyone. NC for this. Some of you will probably remember my post. Just to to give a summary of my last post. I am 26 and have been married for almost 2 years now and I have two kids with my husband. My husband and kids are my entire world. Cant imagine my life any other way. I have been with my husband since I was 14/ 15. When I was 19, I had a fling ( cheated ). Something I regret so heavily till this day. When I look back at my life, I can't even relate to that part of me, I ask my self what on earth was I thinking and at times I get so sick from being anxious and overwhelmed with the thoughts. Everyone looks at me and sees this good mom and wife, yet a part of me feels so dirty with what I harbour. I have been faithful ever since and would never even consider doing something like that ever again.
Two days ago, a post on Instagram triggered all of the emotions I have been feeling x10! A man in his 90s divorced his wife due to an affair she had 40+ years ago. Something he recently found out. The first thing I thought was, maybe this is going to be me in the long run and it brought up for much fear and anxiety in me. I feel like my kids think the world of me even though they are still very young. They adore their father and I know this would break us. Our marriage, the life and family we have built. I don't know what I'm expecting from this post, but I just thought I could share cause I can't really share with anyone in RL 😥