I just can't predict how the future looks like..

[FamilyCourtNightmares]

Been in the family court for almost coming up to 3 years now.
My daughter and I fled v bad domestic abuse, her father abused us both. Shortly after, he took me to court to gain access as I was told to prevent access upon relocating to a new location. Cafcass advised no contact at all in the interim due to a number of safeguarding risks. Judge went against Cafcass and ordered supervised. Almost coming up to 3 years he's still having supervised as there has obviously been court delays.
Section 7 recommended no change in contact, instruction of a psychologist to undertake evaluation of both parents and an appointment of Cafcass guardian.
Psychologist has now spent multiple hours speaking to both him and me. She is very firmly of the belief he is a very dangerous man and because he cannot admit or take responsibility for his actions, the risk still remains. She has informed me that she does not feel contact should unsupervised and even goes so far to say she would be recommending that two supervisors supervise and not one. My daughters father abused her, almost to the point during one incident he almost killed her.. He takes no responsibility at all for his actions. The Cafcass guardian will in effect be making the final recommendation. I just feel scared. There is no way on earth I can ever come face to face with him ever again. His presence terrifies me.. I've told the psychologist and Cafcass that although I will not and have not ever stood in the way of our daughters relationship with her father, I've expressed that she will never ever ever be safe with him.. He has the ability to kill.
I just can't predict what's going to happen at our next hearing.
I get accused of manipulating professionals if they so much as agree he's the abuser and I'm the victim. He blames everything on me and takes zero responsibility. He's tried to convince the court I'm the abuser and has successfully managed to convince that I'm 50% responsible for domestic abuse in the relationship.
No point to this thread.. Just an outlet for my thoughts..

Sorry you're going through this. I hope the courts make the right decision. 💐

Thank you x

@FamilyCourtNightmares I'm sorry you and your daughter are in this situation.

I am experiencing similar, I'm 3 years in to family court and 6 years since his abuse intensively started. I remember people telling me to leave him but they never understood that you can't leave someone who won't let go of their control when you have a child together.

They will continue to hound you through the children so youre cinstantly afraid for their safety (emotional and physical), the courts, and abuse the legal system to throw false allegations at you, criticise endlessly etc. Having to see him in court, read his disgusting words and hear his voice means that the wound cant close. It can feel utterly hopeless because in order to get a legal decision they can abuse you until it is done, then through appeals etc. They're facilitated to do it by the broken system.

It sounds like cafcass have a clear position and evidence to support it. Don't forget that you're vulnerable to his coercion out-of habit - don't let him getnin your head as he can still manipulate you and confus you.

Youre doing a fantastic job. Keep going. Sending a hug.