I've made up my mind that I need to break up with my daughter's father. I just know is something I have to do for myself. The issue is that he's a good person and THE BEST dad which is why I'm questioning myself a little.
The relationship is not going anywhere and we've tried so many times to make it "work". Doesn't see a point in marriage as he thinks it wouldn't change anything but besides that he's very bad at communicating and I'm tired of trying to read his mind. Another issue I have is that he smokes weed daily and doesn't see a problem with it. In fact when I try to talk to him about that he just tries to argue me that there's nothing bad about it.
He doesn't have any hobbies and is not interested or bothered in having a social life. I feel like I'm a complete opposite and I know I deserve a lot more. Even though he's a good person and a father it's just not enough at this point.
I don't even know if any of this makes sense but writing it all out made me realise that wtf am I doing being in a relationship like this right?
I just want to add that I'm not perfect myself but I've been working on myself a lot lately. I always suffered with low self esteem and I think is one of the reasons why I've stayed with him since I was 17 up until now (25 this month). I can see my self esteem improving since I've been working on myself a lot. I guess doing that what made me realised that I am with the wrong person.
My only concern is my daughter. She's 20 months and I just don't want her to feel abandoned as she loves her dad a lot.
I hope you can leave some kind words that will help me see that I'm making the best decision even though I understand that it's my decision and my life. Thank you.