I split up with my DH 4 days ago.
He couldn’t accept it, and is utterly torn apart by it. We have decided to try a trial separation.
I have agreed to a trial separation because he just begged and begged me not to leave.
Ive never seen anyone sob so much. He is broken. Every time I see him, he is crying.
Ive moved into the spare room (he said he wouldn’t cope if we lived separately).
We have two young children.
I feel utterly vile, guilt, sadness.
I have tried to separate before, unsuccessfully, as he begged me to stay each time. I have wanted to separate for 3 years. On previous occasions I backed down and we stayed together. But this is the first time I have stood strong.
Past behaviour has been very poor from him. (No cheating, but he has not treated me well for years)
But in the last 4 months he has stepped up and I can’t complain- he has been excellent. But my love for him has gone.
He can’t understand why I can’t forgive him.
The first 2 nights, we stayed in the same bed. I am concerned for his mental health, as he can’t even string a sentence together. I’ve never seen him talk in such ways. I have broken him and turned his life upside down.
I don’t know what the point of my thread is. I just feel immense guilt and sadness at how I am making him feel.
I don’t have the opportunity to stay with a friend or family.
I would appreciate any advice you can give me. Thank you