Struggling to be intimate...

[getmesomewater]

Hi I had my 3rd miscarriage 6 months ago and since then have been ill with after-complications and my mental health has been in the bin. I've recently been having lots of tests to try and see what caused the issue and I just have found it so hard to bring Myself to want to have sex with DP. Previously we had a very healthy sex
Life but now I don't feel sexy I feel
Numb, fat and just tired all the time. I haven't really dealt with the loss and even tho partner has had so much patience he's starting to think I've gone off him completely and feels rejected I think.
How can I feel better ? Thanks

Ah you poor thing op that sounds so tough. What does the thought of sex do you, do you think somehow you associate it with the tragedy and trauma? I think that's only natural.
Hopefully once all the tests kick in you'll be on a pathway to at least knowing what's wrong and something may "lift" from your shoulders and you can rebuild intimacy.

Sorry meant what does the thought of sex do to you

From what FFS? Miscarriages? Sex? Her DH? Relationships? Feeling bad about herself?

Reel in the dumb please.

I an sorry you are feeling so bad OP. I've been there and it has gotten better. I think it's important that you communicate with DH so that he knows it's not him. It's very lonely to feel unwanted sexually/emotionally. I've been on both sides of this.
Be kind to yourself. You are not fat. You are not unlovely. You've had a hard time. Sex is rarely at the top of the agenda after what you've been through.