I haven't made the effort to see them since about August/September. They live half hour away. My mother lives with my stepdad and my adult siblings who live at home, also I haven't seen my 80 year old grandma in ages and now I'm getting anxious that it's nearly Christmas and they must think I'm an asshole. I'm not a horrible person but my MH hasn't been good. It's been a crappy year and I've felt like hiding myself away, sometimes the thought of socialising makes me incredibly anxious. Some days I'm just surviving.
I have two dc with additional needs, life has been very busy. I've had a lot on my plate, stress levels have been high, the weeks have surprisingly flown by, my sons school transport has had issues so I'm taking him to and from school and getting back to take my daughter on time, it's a push and I am exhausted. Both kids have been very poorly recently but better now. My dh works long days. Sometimes I have not got enough hours in the day. I am also being referred for an adult autism assessment!
Routine is very important in this house for both myself and dc and its become very rigid!
any spare time I have, which is little, I just like to do my own thing. I am a bit of a black sheep of the family at the best of times. Im an introvert in a family of extroverts.
I do feel like sometimes they could make a little bit more effort themselves.
I have had some text and phone calls with them just haven't seen them. I feel like an ass. I can't afford to buy anyone much for Christmas.
am I a terrible daughter/granddaughter/sibling?