HOW CAN I EVER TRUST HIM?!?

[feelingglum]

I've been with my partner for nearly two yrs now and we have a 7mth old. The thing is he was seeing his ex behind my back for the first two mnths of our relationship. I found this out by finding texts on his phone. We sorted things out and then a mth later i found out i was pregnant. It all happened so fast. The thing is i have really low self esteem and i just can't trust him. I check his phone and facebook all the time. Now he's found out and has gone mad. I don't even let him go out in fear of him cheating. I'm pushing him away but i just can't stop these immense jealousy feelings. I'm so down and I feel so lost and alone.

Have you seen your HV/Doctor lately, maybe what you need is some counseling. when my dd was a yr old I had exactly the same feelings and was sent by my GP for counseling as he told me you can have post natal depression for up to two years after birth. Ask, he might be able to help.

yes it could be pnd, so do try and get some support for that. How is your partner about this? does he understand how you feel?

You can get over this but you have to be able to trust yourself that you will not let this happen again. You do not trust yourself to be strong enough to cope if he did it again but you can be. Once you feel 'good enough' for him to want only you, you will be able to move forward.

Good luck I really do know this is not easy as my h had a long term affair and we are still trying to get over it.