Just blocked the guy I've been seeing for 3 years, wondering why I let it go on so long.
He has been awful from day one basically. Early on he cheated and I, stupidly, forgave him.
He continually lied, about everything, and then when I discovered his lies he would shout at me for discovering it. Not even important things sometimes, just lies for the sake of it.
I had cancer and he was just awful to me throughout. Talked a good talk of being a nice guy, and was helpful on a practical level, but he was just emotionally awful, telling me it bored him, telling me he didn't care if I died, complaining about our sex life because of my medication, signed up to dating sites to 'see if he knew anyone on there' too. I was too ill and too exhausted to argue.
He allowed his kid to be abusive to me.
He speaks to his Mum like shit (and allowed his kid to be abusive to her too)
I get to snapping point, he pulls his socks up and starts being lovely and doting, then a month later I'm back to square one.
Its just been discovered I have cancer again, and I can't do it this time around. I cant have my own worries and treatments and have him bringing me down constantly.
He allows his family to be disrespectful to me too.
I messaged yesterday and told him what the doctors said and asked him to stick up for me with his family about an issue (it was an issue for me, not for him because he was fine) and he went off about me asking him to take my side and tell the person what they did is inappropriate. Never asked about my health.
I left it all evening, he never responded after my last message, so I blocked him this morning.
Now I have to face this shitty cancer alone, its making me gain weight like you wouldn't believe, I have a disability due to my last bout of cancer and I have my kids to look after alone (one of who has a disability I'm having to battle to get help sorted for)
I'm just so sick fed up of life throwing shit my way. Abusive childhood, no family due to cutting them out because of childhood, then my child died, then an abusive marriage with a much older man, then I was single for years, met someone else, that was great for a year and he then broke my nose out of nowhere, then single for years again and I start dating this twat and allow myself to be treated like shit. For years. Because I believed his words instead of looking at his actions. I have no friends either as I had to move hundreds of miles away to get out of the abusive marriage I stayed in for far too long.
I'm so, so done.