Had a really low day today with intermittent thoughts about self harm. I don't live with my partner and did tell him I wasn't having a great day when we spoke. The trouble is... I have a lot of days like this. I don't want him to become my carer, I don't want to be low all the time, I'd rather talk about cheerful things. But the effort involved makes mr think about breaking up with him just to stop having to force myself to be positive.
How do you balance being a partner and struggling? How much do you lean on your partner?