Sorry long....
I don't even know where to start, Just feel so alone and sad.
DH and I have had a really difficult few years. Really unsettled - moved house loads of times, 2 small kids, loads of different jobs....
All came to a head last summer when he admitted he was depressed and started taking tablets etc...
He is so much better but it's still so hard. I know I'm not perfect but he just seems so self-centresd.
I am trying to run a business from home on ebay which is basically to support all of us at the moment but he is so insensitive.
It all seems to be about him.
So far today...
7am - I got up to let the dog out.
Nipped out to asda.
Came back, he's shouting at kids to stay in bed. I got kids up and breakfast - he said he fancied a lie in cos he was tired... then he got up then i made him tea and toast.
Then he offered to take kids out to shops so I could have some peace to get on with my work - great I thought...
but actually turned out to be a load of hassle. I got kids dressed and ready, i wrote shopping list, i gave him bank card to pay with, i put them in car for him....
What is the f*ing point?
Then got into a row over something petty and he went off... I'm left herre sobbing my heart out.
So sick of it.
Then phones to apologise but actyually to ask more details of shoppi;ng list.
Then he will come home and I will put shopping away, cook lunch, watch kids etc... while he sits and watches tv and drinks the tea i made for him.
Why can't he see it? All I want is a bit of support and respect.
Am i being unreasonable? Why can't I stop crying?