First of all he has been living in another country for ages, very different time zone, and Ive never been abroad. He is due back soon. I knew it would be less likely he be able to get out of date nights in person as wed be living together. But I told him I think hes cheating, broke up with him the other day and now we arent talking. I would've waited to see if this is just how he is now, see if I could find out more, but I was too miserable, couldnt be bothered and didn't really want to see him after everything. I just wasnt happy. I stayed for so long because I felt some kind of hope.
He wasnt always like this. Hes had no time for me apparently since June. At first he was very promising that we would still spend time together, but it kind of just, evaporated. He would not show up to the plans I made, with no warning. He would say, wed do something, he wouldnt show up. It was really frustrating looking forward to something to the lead up and it not happening, especially literally every time. I know he hasnt been prioritising me at all.
I never got his one on one attention. Video calls we would just stare at eachother he was clearly still busy on other things to do with his phone swiping and tapping and didnt last long. Asked what he was doing, "nothing". messaging, hed leave the conversation after every message and come back a minute later, minutes later, or hours later. Never a "live" chat, and he didnt stay for long. I was interested in him and his life, but he wouldnt tell me anything. He just avoided it, or was very vague, like "it was good."Pressing for more details made him leave. He sounded off too. I tried at first to see if he was going through things but he wouldnt tell me anything, hed just avoid it and if i pressed hed leave, every time. I wasnt sure about this though because if he was cheating could he not have just made something up.
I could see when he was last online, in the middle of night for him. Whos he staying up for, cant be men. I confronted him and he apparently he isnt talking to anyone besides his male friends. Who does that?
I suggested counselling, he said no, too expensive. I suggested ones for free and he got mad that I wanted to share our problems with someone else. I asked if he wanted to break up, which just made him angry and not speak to me for a week.
He will come back but we wont be in the same place. I know we haven't spoken since and may never see each other again. It feels very weird to just go cold turkey. Somehow I feel empty