I’ve also posted in Parenting but might be more suited here. Please help, I feel like I’m turning into her. My DC are teens now and although I would give my life for both, I often wonder if I am NPD like her due to their repulsed and shocked reactions to me.
Apparently I’m too much or too overbearing, DD17 hardly tells me anything about what’s going on at school or in her social life anymore, she only chats and is relaxed if her friends are around, if not I get surliness and silence. I’m aware teenagers need privacy, this is more general conversation when I’m checking she is ok, I am not at her all day!
I’ve at times got tearful and yes, I’ve shouted at them about their behaviour when I feel they’re being disrespectful or I’m not getting help around the house. My anger is due to me being totally exhausted. I acknowledge my regret and apologise and talk about this after and give them affection, in fact anything they need. I always try to be open and honest and if I get it wrong, I hold my hands up, but it still feels like I mess up🙁.
As I write this, I’m anxious that in what I’m trying to avoid, I am actually being a NPD, I saw the bingo card on another thread and do use same terms with my DC as a NPD would. I am finding it hard trying to do this parenting, even at 50, just feel like a failure. Then my DC roll their eyes and say I’m attention seeking when my emotions get on top of me. Feel so very guilty and worn out as I write this. Am I narcisstic? What can I do to stop it as I’m scared.