Tonight I asked my usually lovely boyfriend to leave my house and go back to his. I've never done that before.
He's treated me so well for our whole time (couple of years) and then tonight he'd taken offence at something he'd misconstrued in a message from me and he walked in cross I could tell.
I asked about what was going on because it was obvious he was wound up and he spoke to me like he never had before, not shouting but loud and was speaking over me, I was upset and I think at some point he knew he was wrong but he got defensive and stubborn. He started to say more things and I asked him to leave because I didn't want him to say anything unforgiveable. I said I love you but you can't be like this to me.
So now I'm lying here not knowing whether to message him or wait to see if he messaged me, I am terrified he will end it if I don't if he hasn't mentally already.
Usually even the slightest smallest thing (we don't argue just very rare disagreements usually sorted quickly)
and I can't help but co tact to fix it, I get stomach knots and panic. But tonight im absolutely dazed and shocked and im not really feeling anything.
I live this man and he loves me I know that but this has floored me.