Hi, it's my first time writing and I'm looking for help, suggestions. I have been with my husband for 14 years and have three kids together. Last night I think I have reached my braking point. He told me he was going out to eat with a coworker. He normally does so I told him to enjoy while stayed home taking care of house chores and kids. He returned at almost 3am with this friend. When I woke up to get the kids ready for school at 7am. my husband and this guy were still in the garage till parting. When his friend left he lied to me where he went, he told me one restaurant but I found the bill to another, he also lied to me and went to the bar and he was still awake because his friend and him did some coke. My husband is a functional alcoholic, he drinks daily. I think a big part of that is due to his job. I always made excuses for his drinking cause he was never mean or abusive. He knows were I stand about drug use and I will not tolerate it nor have our children around it. The problem is I don't work as I take care of the house, pets and kids. I always put my kids and his career first and now I have nothing to fall back on. I'm feeling so alone, I don't feel loved or respected by him. I did try to tell him to leave the house today, he didn't. I feel like my world is crashing and no matter how hard I try nothing works