I'm really struggling with my husband and really need to vent.
We've been together 20 years. Own our home (mortgaged). I work full time from home in a job that demands attention to detail and has really busy periods v's easier times. We have 3 young boys. I do the school runs, cook dinner each day, etc as he is out of the house 7am until 5pm.
If i work in the evenings (during busier times - so maybe for one week a month) he argues with me - as i'm "always working", and if i can't do my job in the day i should demand more money and get paid more. When i explain i leave the house twice a day for school runs, helping with homework, etc and therefore owe the hours, he argues that it was "my choice" to work from home around the kids - and maybe i should just get a different job.
I honestly can't win. I feel like a shit employee because they're not getting 100%, i'm a shit Mum because my kids don't get the time they deserve with me, and i'm a shit wife because i'm not watching tv with my husband and don't fancy wild nights of passion 5 nights a week. Why? Because i'm shattered. And some days i'm annoyed with him being a dick, and that's somehow my fault too.
He now goes to the pub after work so the previous 5pm home time is now 6pm. He's out all days Saturdays at the moment because he's got to work community service for 4 months (long story of drunken idiocy), so i have to manage the kid's weekend clubs and get the house straight.
We've not spoken now in 4 days and when i tried to talk he is looking at me for an apology. I would cry, but i really don't have the bloody time! There's ironing, and hundreds of other jobs to be done!
We're not financially well off - we live month to month. Things are a strain at the moment, worrying about the future, and i just can't seem to catch my breath.
I suppose there is no question for anyone to answer. I'm just venting in the hope this somehow helps me.