Advice needed

[Tellmeimcrazy]

Just need a little hand hold. I'm feeling really sensitive this evening. I feel like everywhere I turn I'm unappreciated and like I don't really matter. Like it wouldn't matter either way if I was around or not.
I don't know what it is. I'm not going to harm myself or anything. It's more like I feel I want to get on a plane and start a new life all alone. I feel like nobody would really miss me. Not my partner or my mum or anyone. I feel really low. I know my behaviour at the moment is also not very nice but it's out of frustration because I don't feel appreciated or like I'm getting what I want/need.
It's not very nice. Have any of you ever felt like this?

Yes I’m feeling just like this this evening, I saw a really lovely friend this afternoon too.

Im going through a divorce and my h has been acting so shitty. I have withdrawn from a lot of people so I feel very isolated.

But my friend was lovely and I know I need to start putting myself out there again.

I actually feel like I’m trapped, but know my release date (divorce) is only about 6 months away, then I can make my escape. Patience and endurance are my watch words at the mo.

I have no advice, I hope things will improve for you soon.

@Tellmeimcrazy
Yes, I know what you mean. I was invited to an event the other evening, just vaguely knew 3 people at this gathering, and arrived as everyone was seated. There were a few seats left, but I felt really awkward, and pretended to text someone, thinking I had better just turn around and leave ! A split second later, I plucked up courage to ask someone if I could take the seat next to them, sat down & enjoyed the evening ( it was a hotpot supper & quiz night). The lady i sat next to used to suffer aggraphobia, so she had made a supreme effort to go out. I am probably much older than you, but there have been times in my life, mainly when I was married, where I felt unloved and unappreciated. The only advice I can give is try not to expect much from people, and try not to take life too seriously. You are not crazy, you are just feeling down. I hope things improve for you.

P.S. There's another post on MN this evening, from 10 pm, entitled "Bit lost really" user name "lemoncheesecakemaker" who has posted on her birthday, and she feels similarly.

Ah thanks for the kind messages. I also realised I changed my HRT from gel to patch and I am wondering if this is contributing to the feelings I'm having. I've only be on it for around a week. I will see what the doctor says on Monday

I was coming on to ask about menopause, so I’d suggest it’s hormonal. Hang on in there.
I have actually googled islands for sale while downing Prosecco, so you’re not alone.