I won't block but can't respond

[Feeloverit]

I just can't respond to this person and they haven't done anything wrong.

We known each other years but reconnected while ago think during lock down but I caught feelings. They use to be chasing me. It's long to explain but I can't respond to them. Normally I would but just can't.

Am I bad? Should I just say I'm okay.

I won't block them either just need a bit of space as I am a bit all over the place.

I am kind of moving past them feeling focusing on what really matters.

@HannaHanna

Today I have woken up feeling nothing or maybe numb. Think I realized I have to move on now not think of him and focus on my family.
I feel like I turned a page.

That’s good. You fully have the power here to move forward as you choose.

@HannaHanna

I honestly keep asking myself what do I expect from him. I looked at this guy photos and my phone froze next thing I know I was calling him accidentally. Then I told him got stuff going on and it's been one thing after another and need to take a break from everyone be offline. He said ok cool. I just felt rubbish after like really what was I expecting him to say.
I suppose this has kind of made me feel he really doesn't care at all. I miss our conversations. Saying that be use to say I never open up and he was worried but guess he done. I feel low in general but thinking of him I end up crying.

So now I really feel I just have to not speak to him and I will get to the point where I will need to block him. I doubt he would care really.

I suppose I built something up in my head wasn't true about him.
I posted something on my status and he asked what is that about I couldn't say it was aimed at him could I. I didn't answer him I swear deep down he knows but waiting for me to say something.

It's been I keep quiet walk away it's hard but seen clearly now.

Update

I wrote him a message probably silly of me just thanks for the time he given me. Which he did actually talk to me online visit me at my work. We met up a couple of times nothing bad as such.

I am mixed up with various things and yesterday while we had a conversation thought a message wasn't meant for me but for someone else. I said don't think that less was for me and that I was sorry to interrupt have a goodnight. I must of made a mistake was tired he was like why would I think that. That he always there anytime I need to talk to him.
But I know my issue now and I had got attached to him. I became to depend and rely on him and suppose wasn't fair. He stopped now what he was saying maybe he realized the mixed messages he gave me.
I still feel able to control the situation as I realized what my own confusing feeling were.
I suppose people change or move on he has his own life and I got mine. Just I do miss him at times but asking too much of him is not fair.

I wanted to update

I have moved on well not to say I still don't think of this person I do. I just backed off.
There so much other stuff going on so my mind not really on them.
I feel totally numb like I feel nothing. I won't block as the title says just hope we lose touch and maybe drift to the point he forgets me. I actually had someone else I no longer talk to no need to block just eventually we go back to be strangers.