Love

[Deepblueocean]

Outwardly I seem normal, attractive but am a freak of nature. I am mature and have dated but never met anyone special until more recently.

I have known him a while and it is evident he diesnt feel the same. To him it is just flirting. I distanced myself etc but it is not working. Realise it was the fantasy person that I loved but still sad and devastated.

If it took me decades to finally meet someone.
I now realise not only have I not experienced reciprocal love but have wasted my life which is so upsetting.

@Deepblueocean

how old are you?

You're unlikely to experience any kind of healthy relationship if you view yourself as a freak of nature. Why do you think that? Not finding true, reciprocal love is the bain of many lives, including those in long, seemingly successful relationships, and many people are single. What makes you so specially freakish?

@Deepblueocean I am late middle age.

I realise there are others similar to me. I used to be confident but even then it was a struggle, only players, liars etc were interested in me. .My life has been worthless in all areas. This just highlighted it. I was in denial.

I accept aging and death. it is regrest and waste of a life which is heartbreaking. How do I do that?