I think my marriage is finally coming to an end.
I love my husband, we have fab kids and there are parts of our marriage and life that I love. But, he regularly lies to me. And not just about little things, but about big things. Just this week he's quit his job and not told me (he's done this a few times before), he's booked a foreign student to stay for a fortnight in October, despite me saying I cannot do this for my mental health. (We host two Ukrainians, and we live in a 3 bed house.)
We haven't had sex for years. We barely communicate. Partly because of circumstances (our youngest has special needs).
There is a lot of unhealthy recrimination and sulking (on both sides), but what I can't cope with is being made to feel guilty for something he's done wrong. He's been angry at me for 24 hours, since I got upset when finding out about the foreign student.
But I don't even know where to start. I took a career break to care for my youngest 2 years ago, and now earn peanuts. We have a big mortgage and bills, but I don't want to uproot the kids from their home.
I think child split would be 50:50, although I have no idea how we'd make that work with housing.
I just don't know where to start, but I do know I can't keep feeling like this.