I'm a moron : trying again after cheating

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Just a small vent... I'm a moron.
Ex cleaned up act got a proper job, clean and regular supportive Co parenting.
Wants to get back together and I think about it. Spending time together, I'm one one for him all he wants is the family unti etc not swing anyone else. 100% committed.
Son on his computer... Messaged pop up from an app. Been out for drinks and walks with his ex. Not told me about it as he forgot. The ex whose a psycho and who he dosnt like and hasn't talked to in 6 years. I actually called him during one of these 'dates' he'd lied about where he was and what doing. I'm so done, it's sad as I genuinly bought the dream.

Im a bloody idiot but hey ho, at least I know now. Nothing wanted from. This post really but I'm too ashamed to tell anyone in real life as they think I was stupid for evening thinking of it

Apparently I'm overreacting

You're not.

He's a gas lighter too ....vehicle always goes hand in hand with cheating and lying.

I see now he actually actively lied to you about where he was, what he was doing when you happened to phone him when he was meeting with the "ex" .... Not even lying by omission.

But he "forgot" to mention it cause so busy ..... Nah, he lied on purpose about being with her.

He's still a cheater.

He's done you a favour really, reminding you what a useless cheating twat he is before you got properly hooked in again.

I guess but it's just feels shitty, also the ex is objectively repulsive so that's a nice kick in the face too.
Is what it is, works insane so at least I'm busy!

the ex is objectively repulsive

There is no 'objective' view. Stop judging yourself and others. Move on instead of focussing on blame. Do you think that focussing on blame is going to make you happy?

True

also the ex is objectively repulsive so that's a nice kick in the face too.

That's a reflection on him, not on you.

His standards are obviously not high. Another reason you shouldn't lower yourself to be with him.